Struggling

I've often told people with struggles to write in a journal to help them get through, I guess it's time I follow my own advice.

I'm struggling. I've been having unidentified health issues for years. Not truly sick. But not truly healthy, just don't feel good. Have moved 2000 miles, leaving behind family and friends. Got married. Started working again after being laid off for years. As much of an extrovert that I am, I'm having troubles finding my place and my purpose.

I started sewing again and quilting almost 2 years ago and discovered it was good therapy for me... Then my world crumbled again in what I am told is fallout from PTSD. I can't focus, have little motivation, startle easily, I sleep but don't rest, am edgy, easily agitated... But even after stamping an envelope, it takes 2 weeks to mail it.

And I stopped sewing... I had been sewing almost every day and now I don't sew for weeks at a time. I'm behind on swap commitments from May and June.

Add to it all, we moved in June/July and I'm still getting the house set up. In the last 7 years, this is my 3rd house and yesterday was the 1st time I had put a nail hole in a wall to hang anything. I am trying.

Today I am hosting a get together for my sewing meetup group, intended to motivate me to get stuff done around the house AND get me sewing again.

Wish me luck...